Is it really three years since I kissed your beautiful head while Ram gave you peace? You were my beloved girl who I loved so much and far too young to have had to let go But you needed peace so I had no choice but I miss you so much and wish it had not have been I think you are still here in the little one called Tikva who you never knew but who acts just like you at times. I remember what I wrote a week after you had gone and all I can do now is repeat it for you My beloved Pereg - - - There are no words that I can say but my tears they fall each every day because she's not here and does not come when I call "boi l'ima Pereg" for she has gone Come to mommy but she can't now can she I let Ram release her so peacefully I don't know now what I will do or how I'm coping that is true All I do is sit and weep for my girl although memories I keep But memories don't help for long even if I sing her favourite song She is not here she won't come back and life for me is now almost black - - - But now life is no longer black and Tikva - Hope is not a replacement for you Pereg But she comforts me just as you did and I have enough love for her as I had for you - - - Sleep peacefully Pereg
I miss her Chris. I miss all my Griffs from years back and I remember all of them. Whenever one of my puppies went I took photographs of them with their new family - still have them in the box of photographs on top of one of the cupboards in my bedroom. And of course my lovely Little One, my Lexi, but Pereg was special. Oh I did not, do not, miss The Monster, but I still think maybe I let her down. But even though she was on a long streak - 41 days I think, I knew something was not right. Probably wrote about it here on Breedia but I do not want to look for it. And then I knew the time was right - so did Ram. But I should have given him one of Pereg's monkeys when he took her - although she is probably laughing somewhere over The Bridge because Tikki loves the monkeys as well!
Such a strange day. April Fool's Day? Pereg had her first GM seizure on 1 April 2011. And Ram gave her peace four years to the date on 2015. Pesah - Passover - started at dusk on Friday, as Shabbat was coming in. And on Friday morning I received a lovely bouquet from someone I do not know - he sends me flowers every Pesah and Rosh Hashana - just signed "From a Brother in Arms". I do not know who he is but he was/is someone who was close to the army officer I was possibly going to marry, who died during the Lebanon war. The second Lebanon war, I think. His driver upturned the car so he was not actually KIA - just on the way. But that was a long time ago. He always brought or sent me flowers, and whoever this guy is, he still sends me flowers. And this afternoon? I was in the loo and Tikva did her "there is someone at the door" bark - the door being open as usual - it was Hai from the macolet, full of apologies that he had had so much work on Friday so sorry it was late. More flowers, a box of chocolates, a box of special Pesah cookies, a bottle of wine - and I just lost it. Burst into tears and said Why? Big hugs and he said 'because we love you'. Why? I am just one of his customers. Pereg is somewhere making sure I am OK. And making darn sure I will never forget her. Are you still looking out of the door Pereg? Tikki also sits and looks out of the door as you did.
Pereg with two of her monkeys They were not dog toys - toys for children to put on their backbags as the hands had velcro on them to hold them on. Avner at the macolet had lots of them - they had eyes that lit up red when sqeezed and they howled. Pereg removed the eyes and noses - she did not know I had bought up the lot. 15 shekels each. She loved her monkeys. And Tikki loves one of the new ones that Pereg never knew I had.
